loneliness

Can someone really know my feelings?

Sometimes I feel so unsecured..

I dont know why i feel of that..

My friend said i lack of love...

kinda true?

After school once i reach home..

There's nobody around...

Luckily I have two dogs accompany me..

I'm the one who can't leave alone..

But what the dogs can do?

they can't even talk to me..

yes! my talkative-ness makes me feel more secured because there's still people will care and talk to me.

I scared of silence..

I don't know why i got so low self-esteem 

I can't really stand out

But some of them may be thinking that i have a good leadership but unfortunately you were wrong.

I dont have confident at all..

I scared of many things..

Just even a small matter can make me feel so scared  for example when a guy start to talk loudly

People may think this is not a big deal..

but for me i cant accept that a guy can be so fierce or what's over...

I still can remember during my national service..

I'd promoted as a IC SKUAD 

some sort the head of a company..

As a head, he must be brave confident independent and so on..

But I got no confident..

There's one day during class teacher called me up to give some opinion of  the activities..

Im such a coward..

I dont know why im stunning at there and i cant even uttered a word..

teacher may think that im useless cant even talk..

this is why some of the teachers there not really like me...

chat with friends normally I number one! but no to public speaking...

I got a lot of best friends!

the seven dwarfs :p

zhe yen and angela too

but all of them are female...

can I have a male best friend?

it's not that Im "hiao" or what..but sometimes u may feel secured when u got a male best friend

Not every secrets that u can share with ur female friends..

apparently Male's thinking are totally different from girls

and they are pro in consoling people...

I dont know why a guy's advise is much more effective than a girl's advise to me... no offense ya 

maybe I can feel more secured..

But i think that im too choosy...

I want a guy that is mature thinking 

he may be childish sometimes but when come to serious he is serious...

Sometimes i ask myself 

does my kindness pay?

do everyone appreciate it?

I feel so envy bout my friends why they got so many friends like them

do my friends like me?

does my outlook is the factor that my friends not really good to me?

I hope someone can really see and feel it as Im trying hard to change myself..

My curiosity too high that makes me feel so tired

I can really simply think of anything..

"My friends will think that I'm noisy?'

Because of my noisiness they will boycott me??

I will keep thinking all sorts of nonsense!

If someone read this, I really appreciate that u sacrificed ur time to read this long passage of my feelings

Prom

20th December 2012

A nice day :)

Four of us :)

hui sing, chew, angela and me!

After our so called "not nice pasta" and "not nice smash potato"

we quickly dress up for our High School Prom

Yong Lynn - Make Up artist and Planner :P

Angela Koh - Hair Stylist

 Chew & Hui sing - Customer! 

 hahahaha XD

A wonderful day for me!

First time help so many people make up including me!

Not really look nice but my friend and I satisfied! 

hehe

It's actually very good for the first try! ( lol... self-praise... )

Here goes our picture!

( From left : Yong Lynn, Angela, Hui sing, Chew )

I regret for no taking a close look picture!

Here goes the pic during the prom

High school

This Year!

My last year of school :)

And I'm glad I had so much memories during this Secondary High School  :)

My school SMK CANOSSA CONVENT!

Form 1 & Form 2

A great friend! 

But shifted to Sarawak :(

Form 3 

A friend transferred to our school 

Now she's my best friend :)

Form 2 to Form 5 

Never miss to perform in school

Form 4 

A wonderful class that I'd enter :)

Form 5

The most memorable year!

FRIENDSHIP 

Form 1 to Form 5 

This girl who never quarrel with me before!

I love her!

And now!

New Friend Found :)

A funny group 

that makes me laugh so much!

 If some of you saw this! 

I'm glad that I meet you all :) 

here goes~

 They from Yok Bin!

If I was a Yok Bin student :)

Birthday

SPM is still going on :)

This few days many things happen :)

Let me throw out all my feelings here..

My birthday!

Yes, it's was all about my birthday :)

and I think I have did a right choice!

I don't need to be a coward that hide my feeling inside my heart..

Because I know who is my sincere one and who is not!

I have true friends that who will know how to simplify which is right or which is not!

 And of cause!

I would like to thank her that support my feeling!

and if she'd read this, 

Here has a message for her :)

Thanks for the understanding!

I have no friend that know what I want actually,

Although I have my own best friends

But there's still no one like you :)

I can just throw out my feeling on you,

and you could help me to solve it :)

Thanks! Although sometimes I may not like your comment,

But If I've think wisely,

I know that's good for me!

And I don't know why Birthday for me is the most important day!

Maybe some of you may think birthday is just a normal day,

But for me birthday is a special day!

That's why I want happiness on my birthday!

I don't want to bluff my feeling :)

I'm sorry,

As you know if you are my friend it's really my friend :)

lastly here's a message for someone :)

I'm sorry if you think I'm your best friend, but actually I'm not.

Here goes a word.

MISUNDERSTANDING :(

A Precious Farewell :)

It's Sunday!!

Tomorrow EXAM but like I care~

HAHA!

I would like to share with you my happiness last Friday :)

It's a precious moment!! Hiak Hiak...

Guess What?

It's Prefect's Farewell..

Held on Hatten Hotel Grand Ballroom!

And had a high tea :)

It's really grand!

A WALK TO REMEMBER

Time past in a twinkling of an eye :)

had became a prefect for one year..

It's was not long compared with my others friend who became a prefect

for 2 years? 3 years? or even 4 years! :)

 I salute to them! Who satisfied so much in this job!

As a prefect! You really need to satisfy and endure for so many things!

Which I really can't make it >.<

HAHA!

okla~ 

Want to know how I look on that day??

Hmmmmm...

This is MEEE!!

With make ups on!! Pretty?? hahaha!!

They gave each of us to snap picture with something!

And I had choose this Blingsss CAP :)

And this is my outlook of the DAY!!

Here goes many pictures...

Mahhh friend :)

She is so damn pretty!

Thanks to her and her sister who planned for us for our make ups!!

Thanks to Beauty Club!! :)

Especially who help me to make up!!

Her make up's skill was so awesome!!

Big thanks to them for this AWESOME farewell :)

Ps : Sorry for the low quality photo! hehe..

Here goes my prefect gang :)

And five of us! One more don't know where! HAHA..

This is us!! Form 5 :) The guest..

With the form 1 cutey girls :)

Form 2 :)

Form 3 :)

Form 4! The biggest group!

here goes with form 3 and form 4 :)

One more! That's me!! HAHA

Lastly! This is the souvenirs for my prefect's farewell :)

Once again! Thank you very much!

One team!

Have a good day today :)

I'm in the good mood! I'm happy!

I want my sentence all in different colors!

First time in my life, 

I represent my school for Competition!

 Mighty Minds National Challenge!

We are a team!

AILEEN JASLINE AND YONG LYNN!!

Our name end with ' lin '

HAHA XD

I'm so nervous!

And Thanks to you all that choosing me as a leader for presentation..

Although it's FAIL :(

But it's ok..

Some of the people not even have the chance to present :)

My idea is like so shit! =.=

HAHA XD

But we gain so much of experience!!!!

I love you all!!

We  are ONE TEAM!!

We get to enter the second round competition..

That is construct an alarm :(

Our KH not good..

that's why tak jadi >.<

It's elctronic thingy!!

But It's good enough to get top 15 among 79 teams!!

Woohoo!! 

i REALLY love you guys!!!!

15-4-2012

It's the day after Valentines day :)

So I decided to paint all my letters in PINK!

My favorite color :)

Yesterday~

Everyone updating their status at Facebook with love quotes..

Some singles was envy bout couples :)

I'm single and I'm human being :)

There's still have envy feelings right? Haha..

Yesterday I think of you~

It's so "Suey" why you suddenly  appear in my mind..

But haiz... It's ok :)

Although there's a lot of couples out there..

BUT..

I still have friends right?

It's the first year and last too..

We exchange letter :)

It's feel so nice and sweet..

We called this Ji Mui Relationship >.<

To my friends,

Although after F5, We might be separate and enter our new Chapter.

You will always remain in my hearts <3